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14 August 2008 @ 05:15 pm
acid, sex and real dolls.  
Fucking hell. I never use this thing anymore. I am not sure why.

Life can lick my clit. I'm so sick of men, its unbelieveable. I mean really, I am so sick of being used. I guess, I should clear up some stuff. I have been best friends with Nate for a good 6 months now. From the moment we meet we just clicked and hit it off real nice. I had a crush on him no doubt. One night we decided to trip on acid. We ended up hooking up. I knew that I was going to regret it in the morning, and he told me he wouldn't. But, we would act like nothing ever happen. We both woke up the next day, and the moment I walked into the door he was all over me again. Que sex scene. Then he was telling me how confused he was and shit since he liked me, drey(who is my best friend) and stephiane. We got in a huge fight. Ended up being just friend. A couple of weeks later he is all over me again....... so this progresses to a everyday kinda thing. Its fine its whatever. I go away for the weekend, and I heard he sleeps with this girl Jessica. So I get in a huge fight with him about it, even though we werent dating I still left really used. He apologized and I gave in. Well, I was partying it up with my sister and a few friends the day after he slept with Jess. He calls me up drunk off his ass and goes "Kelsey, I really really really like you and I really like Andrea and I'm fucking Jessica. But, I called Jessica, Kelsey durning sex." All I could do was laugh and fell good. I call up Drey to tell her what Nate just told me but she already knew because Matt Brid told her, right after it happen. Lets fast foward to now. The same shit has been happening. Me and Nate just recently got into a fight and he falt out said he was never going to date me. The day after, he fucks me. Then the day after that and that. I know I am getting used here. But, what the fuck. I think he has to feel SOMETHING or maybe I am just a real doll to him.

Either way, I can't say no to him :[ I don't know why but I always fucking cave.